Sunny Days

So simple

alright, so i just realized it's been a whole month since i last posted anything, surely God has been speaking more than once a month...must've been so boring for you to come check and be like "nothing still!" anyways so here's the latest - so we had hillsong conference which i wrote about before and then we had a 2 week break - i didn't do much during that - slept alot - was catching up on sleep from conference and did some errands that i needed to do - went to the blue mountains one day with some new students and we decided to go on this hike down to these falls and yeah well it got dark before we were halfway back up the mountain, thankfully for whatever reason one of the guys we were with had thought to bring flashlights??? like seriously never thought we would've needed them, but the holy spirit must've been speaking to him! anyways we had a really great time, and i was meant to be back for like 7pm i think i had committed to going to a friends party that she was launching her company that she was going to be running so i had said i would be there - and i'm really trying to be a woman of my word, i know i'm not very good at it, because i take on too many things and then don't have the energy to do everything so i really wanted to be there on time - kept telling them, we need to be back at the car at this time etc, but as time went on i knew we weren't going to make it - and i was getting really angry inside feeling disrespected etc and that i'm going to look bad because i committed to going etc - anyways i was praying about it telling God to change my heart, i knew there was a reason for it and that i didn't want to be a drag to everyone else's fun - at this point i just wanted to get out alive - as it was super cold that night - i think it got down to -3 that night - there was actually frost i heard on people's windows the next morning, i mean i had 4 layers on and was cold - so amongst our trying to find our way out, we run into these two girls who are also on this hike and have no lights, no cell phones no nothing - so we told them to stick with us and we would find our way out - we get out and find my car and then find out that there car is not anywhere near ours it was actually like a 5 minute drive away, which don't know how they would've made it to it - so to me that was revelation about how much God really cares about each individual person on this earth - like he aligned our schedule to meet up with these girls to get them out alive, like we hear it all the time in church how much God loves each individual but when you actually get to see it like that for me, was just amazing, words can't describe - like God went to the ends of the earth to save these 2 girls!!! it's just indescribable - so then also the whole thing with finances, okay we all battle with this stuff - i lost my job, not sure how many of you knew that - the restaurant closed down and of course at this same time my car registration was due etc alot of money needed all at once - but finally got the interview for the physio job at the nursing home that i had applied for way back in may - and then finally actually got the job!!! so God provides - he lined everything up according to his timing which is always perfect as we know - and i finally after 7 months got my loan money into my account!! like seriously praise Jesus - he is providing!!! and really, have i ever gone without until this point? no...so why would he leave me hanging in the dust now - like seriously i know some of these things sound so simple, but sometimes it takes so much for me to understand them for me personally - and then well being here there are so many talented and gifted people here and many times i find myself not measuring up or not being involved in enough and i really feel like God picked me up and moved me here to learn how to rest in him and it's not about being "busy" its about being the mary in the mary and martha story, i was the martha at home, always busy but never really getting it - God wants me to spend time with him first and foremost and i feel like the leadership positions he is putting me in are ones that i dont' have a leader to learn from and i'm learning it all on my own - but he is teaching me how to depend solely on him, because he wants me to lead with him and not be the clone of someone else, so yeah it was really hard for me because i learn really well from watching others etc and here God is saying, nope, all you need is me, i can show you, depend on me, ask me to help you - and like today i was feeling kinda down about this whole leading thing and the qualities i have etc and you know i just realized that it's not about me, like duh i'm human i screw up all the time but God is saying, it's about me working through you for it to happen, cause ultimately it's only him who can make things work well anyway and then there is nothing we can boast about - because i can't do it in my strength, that's the whole point - wow it's such a journey for me - and it's about spending time with him and getting that relationship right first - like tonight i really should be packing and cleaning because i'm moving, i will send you my new address no worries but all i wanted to do was be in Jesus' presence so i just turned on my worship music and sang and then my friend called to go pick her up and i was like singing at the top of my lungs in my car, i loved it and while waiting for her this security man came up to me and was telling me they were going to lock the gates and i got talking to him for quite some time and found out he was a muslim and i didn't get to share the gospel with him or anything but he was quite intersted in talking, but i may have just been the missing link in the chain that may bring him to Christ - it's all about being obedient - like i had i not spent that time with God earlier in the evening, he probably wouldn't have brought that man across my path - funny thing is we are studying world religions in class on fridays and our teacher told us, once you start studying this, you wait, they will come to you - i love how God just drops people in our paths, and i'm realizing more and more people need to see the church being Jesus rather than just going to church, like people need to see the church in action and not be preached to - so yeah very exciting - anyways i have to go there is more i would love to write, so hopefully i will write again soon - luv you all - email me to let me know how you are doing and what is new in your world!!!

posted by Meliss @ 5:03 AM